Why is the thought of hair loss such a big deal to me? To be honest, for the last two weeks I have been on the Internet searching for head covers, going to thrift shops and department stores, and reading posts on how to deal with the hair loss.
Do I just wear a wig, or should I just wear a scarf, or a turban, or a hat? What if the wig comes flying off my head outside on a windy day? That will be shameful.
Can I still jog in the park with a wig? Would I be too sweaty from the heat on my head? What if I’m working and the wig falls on my patient while I’m doing a big wound dressing change? Yuck.
Then my sweet cousin comments on my old pictures on Facebook when I had my hair down to my waist saying how pretty I looked…She forgot I am facing hair loss soon. That did not help.
Anyway, now I have two super-short wigs I got at no cost, plus multiple hats, turban, and scarves. I also have fake bangs for hats, etc. But I didn’t reach peace until I ordered a wig online–a long monofilament one that is supposed to be lightweight and cool, “partable,” “stylable,” and natural looking. We shall see. Since I ordered it online, I haven’t had the chance to try it on and feel it. I also ordered the gel band to make it more secure and comfortable, plus the wig liner, hat liner with padding (good for square-faced like me to add length on top on my head), wig solutions to shampoo, condition, luster, and style with, and a wig stand. Whew.
I just have to have loonngg hair. I did have my hair chopped off short in preparation for chemo, and as much as my friends tell me I look good with short hair and short wig, I feel like I aged ten years compared to when I had my hair long two days ago.
So there, I have to do what feels good for me, right? Well, I got to have a long wig. It will be the next best thing to my real hair that I had worn long for many, many years.
Seem shallow or superficial? Let me be.